Go big or Go home

[Light tomorrow with your dreams today]

"When the going gets tough, the tough gets going"

But how am I supposed to keep going?

I tried my best-est efforts to correct my techniques but habits cannot be kicked overnight.

I'm trying, I'm trying. I really really really am.

How am I supposed to keep going when I am chided for my lack in efforts?

The more I trained, the less motivated I get.

I am supposed to be one of the stronger players but why do I feel like I am the weakest amongst all?

& the desire to return to training squad came back. 

Whatever happens to no return? Why the desire? Why now?

WHY?

Gosh,I feel like crying so badly:'(