Thursday, February 8, 2018

Trust in the Lord with All Your ❤

As you look to Me, you gain awareness of this precious Peace. ~ Jesus

Understanding will never bring you peace. That’s why I have instructed you to trust in Me, not in your understanding. Human beings have a voracious appetite for trying to figure things out in order to gain a sense of mastery over their lives. But the world presents you with an endless series of problems. As soon as you master one set, another pops up to challenge you. The relief you had anticipated is short-lived. Soon your mind is gearing up again: searching for understanding (mastery) instead of seeking Me (your Master).

The wisest of all men, Solomon, could never think his way through to Peace. His vast understanding resulted in feelings of futility, rather than in fulfillment. Finally, he lost his way and succumbed to the will of his wives by worshiping idols.

My Peace is not an elusive goal, hidden at the center of some complicated maze. Actually, you are always enveloped in Peace, which is inherent in My Presence.

As you look to Me, you gain awareness of this precious Peace.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. — Proverbs 3:5-6

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. — Romans 5:1

Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you. — 2 Thessalonians 3:16

Trust me by relinquishing control into My hands. Let go, and recognize that I am God. This is My world: I made it and I control it. Yours is a responsive part in the litany of Love. I search among My children for receptivity to Me. Guard well this gift that I have planted in your heart. Nurture it with the Light of My Presence.

When you bring Me prayer requests, lay out your concerns before Me. Speak to Me candidly; pour out your heart. Then thank Me for the answers that I have set into motion long before you can discern results. When your requests come to mind again, continue to thank Me for the answers that are on the way. If you keep on stating your concerns to Me, you will live in a state of tension. When you thank Me for how I am answering your prayers, your mind-set becomes much more positive.

Thankful prayers keep your focus on My Presence and My promises.

Let be and be still, and know (recognize and understand) that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations! I will be exalted in the earth! — Psalm 46:10

Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. — Colossians 4:2

His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires. — 2 Peter 1:3-4

What a timely reminder. Let go and let God.

Monday, February 5, 2018


I know this comes a little late but...

A year of change
A year to take a leap of faith

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Burning bridges?

Humans can be so superficial and bias.
On the surface, they say words such as self-love or whatever crap, but the actions are contradictory. I am so sick and tired of this shit.

They prided that they know you well -know your pattern, know your personality, know your character and constantly pointing out your flaws. But honestly, is what you see what you get? Have they ever considered that people put up fronts to hide something? Perhaps the lack of sense of security, feeling envious, the emptiness in the midst of a crowd etc. 

How deep of a person can you truly understand? 
Do you really understand what he/she is thinking?
Do you really understand how he/she is feeling?
Do you really know what he/she is going through?
Do you really know what he/she is struggling with?

How can you fully understand a person's feelings when you have not walked a mile in his/her shoes? If you are not that person,  how can you say you understand him/her well? You are not living his/her life.

Yes, you have your struggles
Yes, you have your troubles
Yes, you have your issues
but the experiences are not the same. It never is and will never be.

They think that you are unappreciative, lazy, ungrateful and the list goes on but really, do they know your inner-thoughts? The little things that you do go unnoticed. Humans are just like that.

I am no saint but I try to follow the bible's teachings. I am not perfect but I am trying.

The struggle between christian thoughts and human thoughts is real. It has come to a point where I feel so numb I cannot even be bothered to speak up or defend myself.
Perhaps some things are just not meant to be in your life, no matter how much you yearn.

Just need an outlet to get it off my chest.
Can't wait to escape from all of these zz

Monday, November 27, 2017

What Would Jesus Say on Social Media?

Speak with grace. 

If you play the fool and exalt yourself, or if you plan evil, clap your hand over your mouth! – Proverbs 30:32

Here it is, translated for social media: “If you are tempted to slam someone online or brag on Facebook or send off a nasty tweet, turn off the screen and walk away!”

That’s it in a nutshell, but maybe we should spell out some rules of thumb that might keep our thumbs and fingers from wandering off into slander, arrogance, or combativeness.

1. Pray Before You Post 

My friend Suzanne wrote a great online devotional in which she talked about how many people run to check their Facebook page first thing in the morning. She encouraged her readers to instead make sure they consulted their “Faithbook” first — the Bible. How true this is! Perhaps if we spent time ingesting words of truth before we switched on the computer, we might not write things that are unkind or hurtful. At the very least, we should whisper a prayer before we post, asking the Holy Spirit to tap on our hearts if we are tempted to post anything online that would not glorify him.

2. Imagine the Recipient Sitting Next to You 

The Internet is so impersonal. We see tiny little thumbnail photos of people. We see words typed out on a screen rather than hear them spoken out loud. The pixels-and-pictures environment almost compels us to be rude because it lacks the subtle social cues — the wince, the moment of quiet — that tell us we’ve crossed the line. We feel empowered and also have a sense of anonymity as we tap, tap, tap away on our keyboards. But if a flesh-and-blood person were sitting next to us with eyes we could look into, perhaps we would state things differently. Before you post, ask yourself if you would say things differently if the person to whom you’re writing were actually sitting next to you.

3. Remember: When You’re Online, You’re Also on Stage 

Unless we send a private message, our online words are available for others to see. Twitter followers see what we tweet. Facebook friends, and the friends of those on whose walls we post comments, also see what we say. And hundreds, if not hundreds of thousands, of people can see a comment we leave on someone’s blog. This reality should certainly cause us to pause before we post — especially if there is even a remote possibility we might later regret what we write. If I say something in person to a friend and am later convicted I was wrong, I can go back to my friend and apologize. However, if I post something on social media or comment on a blog and later want to retract it, I have no way to chase down all of the people who might have seen the original comment. Just this fact alone should cause us to really weigh our words before we type them out.

4. Ask Yourself If You’ve Earned the Right to Address the Subject at Hand 

If friends on Facebook are hashing through a hot-button issue of the day, do you have any expertise in the area, or are you only slinging an underinformed opinion? We can’t always be an expert on every topic at hand, so when we aren’t, we might do well to refrain from commenting at all.

5. Ask Yourself If You Have a Close Enough Relationship with the Person to Warrant Offering Your Opinion 

It both irks me and makes me laugh when I see who hops on my page to offer their unsolicited opinions. Suddenly, people I haven’t heard from in years pop up on my screen offering their pixelated opinion about something I’ve posted. They give me specific instructions and pointed advice on what I should believe about a particular topic. This always surprises me because I don’t have a close relationship with these folks. Why do they think I will take their advice or value their perspective on my issues when they have not been a close friend or confidant?
Would they be responsive to unsolicited advice if someone they knew years ago suddenly walked up to them on the street and started telling them what to believe and how to act? If you’re tempted to dole out unsolicited advice to anyone who’s not a trusted friend, then I encourage you to resist the temptation!

6. When You Do Speak, Let Your Speech Be Laced with Grace 

No need for snark. No need for angry words or critical comments. Our mamas were right: If we can’t say something nice, we shouldn’t say anything at all.

When we do speak, we can choose to be gracious rather than accusatory or negative. Our words must glorify God and not just exalt our own opinions. 

We should be especially mindful that there are people whom we don’t know who might be viewing our online speech. Here is a great guideline from Scripture:

Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone. – Colossians 4:5-6 

Excerpted from Keep it Shut by Karen Ehman, copyright Zondervan.

Monday, November 13, 2017

Let your strongest muscle be the will

Busy semester with heavy workload -never a good combination. Much regrets even until now for taking up 5 modules for this semester. Looking back, what was I thinking? A hero wannabe? Push my limits? Hahahaha, sot.
No-life weekend, 1 down and 1 more to go.
So goong goong. I thought my papers were today and tomorrow but a double-check at my planner told me otherwise (tomorrow and Wednesday). Good thing I checked, if not I would have gone to school for NOTHING.
Sigh pie, can imagine my stress level. Literally coped up the whole day in the room while others enjoyed their activities. Can't wait for the exams to be over.


After that can bounce already, HAHAHA!


Why is it that the invitation to the girlfriends' meet up is extended to the partners? Correct me if I am wrong but the ones I am having a friendship with are the LADIES and not the guys. What's the purpose of bringing your boyfriends to the meet up? I thought it was a ladies' night out.
No, I am not bitter or salty about not having one but dude, we have not seen each other in a while. There should be lots of catch ups, gossips or whatever nots but with strangers there (can't blame me, I know them but I don't know them well enough like the ladies), we will not be as engaging. The least you guys can do is, er, maybe ask me if I am ok with it? Am I ok to be the third wheel, the extra light bulb? Me awkward much?
Going to get married next year and you will see him for the rest of your life. Is there a need to be so attached? ("/)
If the future meet ups are going to be like this, I am going to start compiling 101 excuses to give it a miss. I mean, what's the point right? The current situation is not as if we are close, unlike the past.
Sigh. So not looking forward to the 25th.
Maybe I will fake being unconscious or something, tsk.

Monday, October 30, 2017

Life is really an unpredictable journey

Just this morning, I learned of a colleague's health condition. One day while working, she felt uncomfortable so she headed to the nearest polyclinic. On that same day, she got admitted and has been in and out of the hospital (to drain the water out of her lungs) ever since. This was weeks ago.

The diagnosis was stage 4 lung cancer. What was even shocking was the suddenness of it. There was not a single symptom or warning prior to the diagnosis. She has always been fine -doesn't smoke, happy-go-lucky etc which was why I was totally caught off guard by the news.

When I returned, I was told that one of the clients passed away.

Yup, all within the span of an hour.

As I type this with an extremely heavy heart, I can't help but ponder on the fact that life is really really unpredictable. You could be in a pink of health right now but the next health check-up may prove you wrong. You could be heading home after work just like any other day but you may not make it home. I am not dwelling on the negativity, or at least that was what I told myself. I am thinking, if any of these happens to me, what will happen? I admit, I am not ready to meet the Heavenly Papa in heaven yet. I know I have tons of goals unchecked on my list.

Now I know why people tend to avoid working with elderly. The grief not an easy matter. The handling of emotions and the acceptance that death is part of life on earth -I am still trying to come to terms with it. I have some clients I am close with and I can't imagine receiving their negative news -the feeling will be like losing my grandparents all over again.

Will I be able to handle when the time comes?

Monday has officially been ruined...

Saturday, September 23, 2017

Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always

Thank you Lord, this win is yours. 

I wasn't expecting to win but through Your guidance, the women's team clinched the champion title.

Well done people, all the hard work and countless suicides paid off! Though there were matches where some of us did not perform, I'm glad we got each other's back(s) and side(s). Compared to last year's SUNIG, we did better and the chemistry among the team is obvious. Thank you for giving me a chance to play with you people. I know my attendance is one of the worst due to work and school but you guys ladies accepted me.

God, I hope that I shined for You through this competition. Thank you for the mental and physical strength to last through the matches. Casting my nervousness and fears onto You while drawing strength and peace, knowing that You are there with me, with us.

Everything that I have and everything I became is because of the strength of the Lord, and through him I have accomplished everything. Not because of my strength. Only by His love, his mercy and his strength.